Hess's law和他们，不等号

第二学期开学了，意味着半年的流逝，但一点都不浪费，因为有他。

半年。半年！在这方形框框呆了半年。一样的天空，一样的空气，一样的温度，没有他的地方，却沾满了他的气息。随意翻看记忆的哪一页，都有他们的影子，是黑灰色的——也是彩虹色的，因为，心。

那一页，熟悉的早餐店，他和她吃着猪肠粉，不是特意，真的是巧合，选了猪肠粉。
那一页，是云顶高原，天气很冷，但心是暖的。一起体验不一样的心跳，不一样的节奏，脸上都是满满的笑容。
那一页，他们当了小贼，跨越比身高再高一点点的篱笆，闯进初次相遇的地方。只能感慨物事已非，不再是他们认识的那个地方，那个故事起端的背景。能做什么，什么都不能。

另一页，是巴士站，是火车站。。。那个又是相见又是分离的地方。说是黑区，也是桃园 :)
。。。

很荣幸的，309公里的距离，回忆里都还能有他和他们的故事。
309公里的距离，一毫厘的身影。
309公里的距离，不。是。问。题。

Hess's law，在化学书上看到，说是哪个化学反应不管由一个步骤，或是两个，或是千万个，reactants转换成products时，所排放或摄取的热量永不改变。这里意味着不论漂洋过海，不管暴风大浪，heat change的数值都不改变。

明显的，Hess's law不能相等于情。
你的友情，我的亲情，还有他们的爱情。。。
因为，意义不同——

你认为呢？

惜别

“分离，只不过是重逢的前奏。惜别。”

在一位朋友的部落格读到这么一句，多少抚平了那颗心。
但，还是不愿那样，很痛苦。

不舍，又能做什么？不能。什么都做不了。


还以为能控制自己，结果还是——失败。


为什么这篇故事得经历许多分分离离？不甘愿！
却，措手无策。



这只是过渡期，总这样安慰自己。

但要到什么时候呢？


液，请，不要掉下。
因为心会更痛！


惜别，
重逢就在不远—— 

Destiny

穹苍 依旧

事景 没变

而我呢？

那一年

我 还有你

这一年

我 你 还有他

三个人

三条锁链

却     只有

一

把

钥

匙

                       或许吧？！

*摘自数学考卷 。后页 :)

UPS :)

"Robotic life" strikes people's minds whenever talking about Matriculation. However, I disagree with it (not to used "totally" as maybe there's still a small proportion of answer inclines to--"yes"@@)

Hmm, what a formal opening it is! What's happening on me? The answer is so obvious--UPS! Actually, it's not scary to know about its looming, unless you're still unprepared. Yup, the most suitable and appropriate answer for my doubts! NOT PREPARED WELL!

What a long long time I lost connection with English though it can be said the second language after Melayu, here. My lovely classmates are all Malays except for my annoying ex-monitor and I. I don't know why I can't speak proper English in front of them. Confidence always fell away whenever making conversations in English with them. It made me go insane. Whatever assignments passed down to us, the Malays always did better than I did. In other words, I'm weaker than they are. Again, I'm making comparison with others which is certainly an unhealthy study way. Haizz, Voon Wei, it's nothing to do with others, it's all because of you yourself. Maybe, I can make an assumption which sounds like that: I was too emphasizing on my triple sciences and math so, most of my time has paid off for that, only a pity little time left for English. Undeniably, worries appear.

Okay, let bygone be bygone. We should look forwards. What we can do for the past is to take it as an lesson and never repeat it again! Ya, it seems to be so simple in saying but, how about in doing? I can't answer it. Instead, I don't want to keep any promise to myself.

Only time can proof it. Let's time decide.

Never cry over split milk. Right now, you should know what you supposed to do. Never try to do anything, just do it. The bear fruit depend on your effort!

effortless=no production
a little effort=less production

EXTREME EFFORT=OVERPRODUCTION=a lot of fruits-->healthy lifestyle

:)

滚蛋

心情好糟 : (
是哪一条线接错了？
还是我的神经系统正在战争，造成这样的我 : (

你们快点滚吧！

To my dearest papa and mummy

Time flies like hell! Tomorrow is my day : (

Though this is not the first time I leave you for such a long time, still sadness drowned me.

Among these period of time, I saw worries inside you. Kept reminding me about my manners, my study and so forth, I never feel annoyed instead of happiness. This is all because of--care! Yup, you care about me. What should I say? Despite of Thank You, there is still thousand of THANK YOU!

Papa and mummy, thank you so much!
What you have done to me, I'll remember until my last breath.

I LOVE YOU <3

I promise you to study hard, never disappointed you!

I DEEPLY PROMISE!!!

爱你-陈芳语

我閉上眼睛 貼著你心跳呼吸
而此刻地球 只剩我們而已
你微笑的唇型 總勾著我的心
每一秒初吻 我每一秒都想要吻你

就這樣 愛你 愛你 愛你 随時都要一起
我喜歡 愛你 外套 味道 還有你的懷裡
把我們衣服鈕扣互扣
那就不用分離
美好愛情 我就愛這樣貼近 因為你

有時沒生氣 故意鬧脾氣
你的緊張在意 讓我覺得安心 
從你某個角度 我總看見自己 
到底你懂我 或其實我本來就像你

就這樣 愛你 愛你 愛你 随時都要一起
我喜歡 愛你 外套 味道 還有你的懷裡
把我們衣服鈕扣互扣
那就不用分離
美好愛情 我就愛這樣貼近 因為你

想變成你的氧氣 溜進你身體裡
好好看看在你心裡 你有多麼寶貝 我愛你

就這樣 愛你 愛你 愛你 随時都要一起 （愛你）
我喜歡 愛你 外套 味道 還有你的懷裡
把我們衣服鈕扣互扣 那就不用分離
美好愛情 我就愛這樣貼近 因為你
我們愛情 會一直沒有距離 最美麗

The day I left KL-study life. Everything ends there. The laughter we made in the small but cosy room has disappeared in my ears. TAR College, goodbye. My friends, goodbye. My room, goodbye. Goodbye and goodbye! Everything that has a start must end with an end. Life too. Asking about my feeling? I can't answer you, really. Flashing back the days with them, it was full of happiness. I like the moments we were together (It seems to be very abstract as I can't really mention a scene though).

Apong~! Long time no eat, miss it so much!

I just realized that different places, different kind of apong it has.

I've tried Kelantan's apong, Ipoh's apong and Taiwan's apong.

All are different no matter the taste and the look :)

Beer from Japan-one litre drink! Must be truly full after drinking:P Want to try if I have the chance :) 菊水~

Beer from Japan-one litre drink! Must be truly full after drinking:P

Want to try if I have the chance :)
菊水~

A special present for me

Sunrise.
Pink-y sky.
Our promise.

Aimlessly, we walked around 1/4 KL.

Simple but joyful :)

National Museum.
Never have I been there before though I often went to KL.
My first time was with him, (camouflaged) as tourists.
Feeling so good :)

Bearnaut (astronaut):)
I think I'll never have a chance to wear spacesuit.
And, I don't think I want to. Wearing it means I got a high probability to leave my beloved for a decade :(
Life is too short to do whatever things we want to do. Don't waste even a second!

What is in your mind? Familiar to it?
It makes me think of Titanic.
Still remember the scene when Jack gentlemanly invited Rose to the dinner?
Anyhow, it's just an common staircases in the museum.
I must think too much :S

National Planetarium.
What a cosy place it is!
Walked by the whole journey, under the hot sun, without umbrellas,  we were truly wet .
The air-condition really did us a favor. Thanks :)

I've no idea about it.
Maybe it is an abstract planet :S

Old Train Station.
We've no idea to go there.
In the taxi, we were ready to have our lunch in KL Sentral.
Accidentally saw this ancient building, so great!
I'm glad that we asked to stop.
It was worthwhile indeed :)

A lot of exhibit inside.

It's something like weighing machine, of course to weigh heavy items or machines, but not me :)

Phone porridge, with old style phone, must be great :)

Obsolete locomotive outside the Old Train Station.

"An unknown day can also be gorgeous! :)"
It was what I learnt that day.

我 们

才离开这里三个星期，就好是昨天的事。
回到熟悉的地方 真棒！: )

昨日的我们 还小
不需为明日而担心

今日的我们 长大了
必须对任何事负责任 : (

突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心 
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛著 不平息 
最怕突然 听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音 不愿那是悲伤的哭泣 
事到如今 终于让自己属于 我自己 
只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己 

突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈 
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛 

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 变成两部悲伤的电影 
为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行 
然后留下 最痛的纪念品 

我们 那么甜那么美那么相信 
那么疯那么热烈的曾经 
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去 

突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈 
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛 

最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心 
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛著 不平息 
最怕突然 听到你的消息 

最怕此生 已经决心自己过 没有你 
却又突然 听到你的消息

Dust-distance

The star sparkles

is because of the dust.

He said.

Distance causes more dust

in between it.

Distance is the big obstacle for it.

She replied.

Kellie's Castle

Kellie's Castle, wait for me, should we meet.

Kellie, wait for me, and him, for a ten-year's time.

My hope, my dream

Lie on the top, feel the night and gaze the stars

with him.

Can you do me a favor?

Let the day be the most unforgettable day to us.

Kellie, let your memories within the walls, enlightens me, 

and also him.

A million thank you to you :)

回忆是断肠的风筝 : )

我的回忆里有你，

真
爽
！

My heart will go on

Every night in my dreams,

I see you, I feel you

That is how I know you, go on

Far across the distance

And spaces between us

You have come to show you, go on

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time

And last for a lifetime

And never let go till we're gone

Love was when I loved you

One true time I hold you

In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear

And I know that my heart will go on

We'll stay forever this way

You are safe in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

红豆面包脸

最近不知怎么了，爱上了这没温度的面包。

早餐、午餐、晚餐        都是面包。

我会不会变成面包脸？！我不晓得！

不管怎样，那已经是我最新的绰号了（无奈）

我也不想的=.="

胡思乱想？

今早，强逼自己去慢跑。作夜观看偶像剧至三更，带着浮肿的双眼来到公园——我是有病吗，有时间不睡，这样逼自己到底是为何？我也不晓得！就觉得，爽。

慢跑的路程中，我想了很多事。我的人生、我的未来还有，我对你的感觉。

现在的我到底是一个怎样的人？走完了我人生的前17年，我学到了什么？我已成“形”了吗？人到底要怎么当才算成功呢？好多问号在我脑袋里打转，可我丝毫没有阻止它们的念头，让它们这样放肆着。在当兵的日子里，有上佛学课。陈老师、强哥、兰姐等人常说做人应该怎样应该怎样。当然他们不是直截了当，而是用许多感人故事、例子让我们自觉醒悟。说得也是，要让一个人能持续生存不是给他一条鱼，而是教他怎样钓鱼。前者是他人的责任，一旦完成了他人的分内工作，那个责任就不复存在了。接下来的路得靠我们自己走，自己走......

荆棘载途，好刺激、好好玩，我喜欢！我怎么看见另一个我在颤抖呢？动作很微小，但还是被我发现了。等等，熊温薇，你怎么了？生病了吗？真正的熊温薇不会这样的。她是毅力与耐力兼备的super bear，她的正能量多到连自己都不可思议，怎么会害怕呢？可笑吧，自相残杀的两个，我。

18岁了，我已经18岁了！那又怎样？代表我已经长大了呀！我已经是个小大人了。我可以自己作主，为自己的未来作决定。我已经自，由，了。会吗， 我怎么都不觉得？在我眼里，你还是个小女孩，不懂得自卫，不稳重，不成熟，对自己的未来更是一片空白的小不点。我要抗议！小姐，我哪里不懂得自卫，哪里不稳重了？请说明一点！再说，我很清楚知道我以后要向医学这方面发展！我真的不懂你的不懂我。......（无言）两个我又在那里斗气了，无奈加上矛盾。

而对于你呢？这一次，换我无言了，反倒是她滔滔不绝，口沫横飞地说。我，只有听着。其实他很不错，看起来稳重踏实，正好能补去你的粗枝大叶和不稳重......她是在绕口令吗？头好晕，好想马上叫她闭嘴，但我又很想听，所以打消了那个念头，继续认真听。再说，谁会把一个认识不久的女生的名字写在......他分明......这一次，我真的不想听了，把耳机的音量加大，正好是“Hit the lights”。天啊，这个歌词，怪适合我的！“Hit the lights, let the music move you, lose yourself tonight, Come alive, let the moment take you, lose control tonight......”

汗流侠背的感觉，真，爽！

重返

I'm back, at last!

失去联络的两个人
还是会有重逢的一天。